happy tracey (:

haha i'm so happy, hyper now. but the thought of band is killing it. to be more accurate, the thought of spending the next 6hr with ms sia's draining all the happiness out of me.

It's ironic
i wish time passes faster so i can get to my sat tennis lessons
i wish time would just freeze so i'll never get my dose of band pracs.
i wish time passes slower during tennis
i wish time passes faster during band pracs so that mental torture is kept to the least

you know what i feel like doing? i feel like taking the prestige clarinet and swinging it like the tennis racket and hopefully the upper part of it would just fly out of the window, just like how she would just poof away from my life (:

if you ask me whether i like music. i dont know what to answer. my music life has been so painful and crappy. i had piano lessons when i was quite young and i hated it. it was simply dreadful. and now i have band. which i also dread every practice. it sucks to know i have such a terrible music life. but has anyone ever find learning piano a total joy? i bet very few. but i do enjoy listening to music, other than that, i wish to have zilch connection with music... heh. maybe i'm just not interested in music enough to enjoy it. whatever. i dont care. just get me out of band! either that or get her out. poo...

okay, as i was saying... i was very happy. i think it's nice to learn something you like. well, it's the first time i have such a feeling. my mum use to sign me up for lots of crappy lessons which i never enjoyed and look forward to. maybe my playschool speech and drama class. hee, that was really fun too. but i told my mum to sign me up. so yeah.

it's not cause i'm not talented that's why i hated the lessons. i'm terribly talented in abacus. i always topped my class, getting perfect scores. but i was never really keen. well, maybe i was a little interested but still i never look forward to the lessons. there were tons of homework which i would just happily shoved aside until 6.45pm on friday and i would just copy all the answers and rush off for my lessons. the teacher liked me but i dont like the teacher. after learning for 6 years, i quit. i was so close to being a qualified teacher for abacus. haha but what's the point. it's just dumb and i dont like it. i'm not someone that can't go through any hardship, i just choose not to put myself through the unnecessary torture.

back to me being happy, sigh i keep going out of point.
yeah i was happy.
and i am happy (:
i like my tennis lessons (: