magic of love + dumb nightmare

as usual, i was talking on the phone with crystal. the convo went something like that

me: i'm watching a magic show on the 24th by a pastor.
crystal: is it some kind of christian influential show?
me: yea. i think so. otherwise why would my aunts ask me to watch a magic show
crystal: think i watch it before... it's like this father daughter and the head chopping thing
me: i think the magic show is called magic something love
crystal: yea i think it's the same show. magic of love
crystal: if it's the same show, she'll 100% leave
me: yup. so will she leave?
crystal: thereotically, yes.

god, everything is so related to my conductor. i want her to just get out of my life. she expects me to sacrifice so much time in band. that's like wanting big chunks of my life. it's just not right. not worth it. i dont owe her so much.

anyway about the dumb nightmare... i dreamt that me and crystal went racquet shopping. this stupid shop guy tried to sell us a racquet that was about to snap into 2 pieces. good thing we realised. then he tried to sell us a triangular racquet?! i thought it was very wierd... but the whole shop was filled with many of these triangular racquets. i was reluctant to get it. but crystal said "if we dont get it now we'll never get it. " then i was quite pissed off. then i saw some normal looking racquets in the shop. but they were all plastic racquets. then crystal receive a call from nelson. then she said "get the guys to come la. then they can tell us which one to buy" so she passed me the phone. and i was actually talking to nelson and it felt quite good. then i woke up. haha.

in case anyone out there is assuming, nelson's not my bf or anything like that okay. just something like my best friend in pri school. but i havent keep in touch with him for quite long. I kind of miss talking to him. if there's any friend that knows me best, it has to be him. somehow he knows almost everything about me, including my wierd side, which not many people know. dont think anyone in sn knows besides huifang cause i've learnt to control my stupid mouth to keep my own secrets to myself... haha and yea, i still have my wierd side with me. just maybe more recessive. and as long as i dont show or tell anyone, no one will know *smiles*